Remoteness of the things on the Earth~

At this moment, i felt that everything is so remote that i can't manage to aim high, to look good, to be proud of the things that i wished to be...
像是天上的星星,那么遥不可及... =(

Things seems to be so close that i manage to see it from where i stand but i just couldn't reach it, it's ABSOLUTELY a pain, so much so that it hunted me in the middle of the night that once again ruined everything~~ It's just so scary and frightening~~

Everyone else seems to be care-free, living good & coping well enough, but why i am the one falling in that unsolvable situations : Family, Love, Friends, Hope~~ People just would like to say is alright and it will be over, but there are definitely things couldn't be and will not possible to be alright and will not comes to an end~~

I tried so hard so many times, but things went hair-wired, so what's the point i kept trying and there is no outcome???? WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, Daph is depressed on every single things on the Earth now!!!!! There is no more hopes, no more possibilities, no more chances............ NO MORE

As Time Passes By~~

Life cannot be paused, neither rewind nor forward & i clear on this...
It just flows with the time...
Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult...

Fate......
However mystical, is also grounded by the choices we make...
In the end, there's a symbiosis between the world and all its externalities, your heart and mind...
I may regret the way it ended, but I will never regret what had been before...
Why am I afraid to lose it when you're not even mine...
Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?

When one door closes, another door opens...
But so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door...
Until do not see the ones which open for us...

It seems that a better person is just right beside now...
Seems to have forgotten and let go of the past of what being done together...
Deep down you know it's best for yourself..
The options would only grab firmly or release it...
NOT being ambiguous between them which u did...
It's always better to say something direct and to the point than to keep someone guessing...
Because their interpretation might be different from what you want to say...

Everything is just so sudden till i seems to be able to conquer it...
BUT...
Unfortunately it is a clear manifestation that almost impossible to be done for the moment...
I doubted it for over and over again...

Why should I care? When you obviously don't...
Why should I try? When neither do you...
Why should I even show up anymore? When you wouldn't notice If I didn't...

The only consistent thing in my life..
Is the rain, the dark clouds, and the crashing lightning...
When I’m crying you can’t tell..
And before I come back,
It washes away the pain, It washes away my tears...
I come back in,
And the pain comes back...